It feels good to know how a lot of people are concerned about me and the shit that I am going through right now. They never fail to give advices and say things that are really helpful in making my decision.

I haven’t really decided yet but I never stopped thinking about it. Shall I completely let go of the past? Should I stick with the person whom, I know, would never leave me? Or shall I be with him again? He who left me long before. I know I should stay with the one who makes me happy and make me feel loved at all times… But what if they are both like that? What if they both make me happy? What if I really still do love him? But I don’t wanna hurt the other guy, I don’t wanna hurt anyone and never would I want to hurt myself. As I have said in the past blogs, I don’t wanna grow up with nothing but regrets, nobody does want to.

So many what if’s and but’s.

I hope making a decision is just easy as 1-2-3. But no. Decision-making is something that you should really think about not just ten, not just a hundred, but a thousand times.

I am on the verge of breaking down and yet I don’t wanna give up. I can’t and I won’t give up.